blasted thoughts.

it's okay.
call me olivia goodsport,
what does it really matter anyway?
we all are just dust in the wind, and
i have my guitar to make me happy.

but on the other hand..
i wish that school was winding down,
slowing down
i wish that it was already summer,
i wish that i could see him again,
i wish that i didn't like you.
wait,
i thought i didn't?
i hate these subjective feelings.
whyyy georgia whyyy?
You know what?
Fuck you, and your untouchable face.
yeah.
that's what i feel.
please let me breakdown.

oh, calm.
gravity.
nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky.
in my mind,
i hear all this music.
and it breaks my heart.
because they're in love.
they've been in love.

oh well.
she willlll be loved.
just not today.

one.

Even if theres no one left to understand,
i have the sky to cry to.
The ocean will claim me.
The breeze will hug me,
and play with my hair.
The trees will raise me up in their strong arms,
and the sun will fill me up with its warmth.
The flowers will be enough smell,
the birds will be enough song.
My feet will feel the ground,
beating and beating with my heart.
and even as i fall,
the grass will inclose me in a safe blanket,
and i'll sink into the world,
home.

LETTING GO

is really not an easy thing for me i'm quickly realizing.


this is why i never freaking get my hopes up.

well this is dumb

once apon a time i was falling in love,
now i'm only falling apart.

i think sometimes you glance at me too?...

i like it when our eyes meet.
i like it when you kick my feet.
i like it when you sit next to me,
even for a moment...
you make me smile.

i like it when you say my name,
i even liked that goodbye.

gah.

i like you.

is that because you're so far away?
...now its so easy to say.

stop.
stop messing with me.

i wish you would sing me to sleep.

i don't understand this.
can't i make up my mind?
can't you just give me a clear sign?